As the day breaks (confession of a troubled man)

Its been more than five months now. Still no change, accept for the deteriorating body weight (it could be a blessing in disguise) and i just got healthier. But the emo part-still in bad shape, the same way i felt 10 years ago. the max!
But lets just leave the story for another day.
Continuing my life is not an easy task, and how i wish the storm would be over now i havent tasted any calm.
'For that someone' who thinks they got it made and has everything they want it would be easier. If i were to open my mouth, surely they would be embarrased, i never had anyone's help in life nor did i ask for them, it is just not me. I think thats the only part i should be proud of.
Anyway for those who may have heard and i my have spoken to this is what ill say "It could be plan to destroy me". After all it was already foretold, by a medium, the one who will betray me is the one closest to me.
She knows who she is and what she was and what she has done.
Let me tell her this one thing there is nothing in this world that i have not felt yet. I've tasted the worst kind. And you are one to be remembered
There is a a million words to describe and tales to describe this betrayal. And for those who has got themselves involved, when they should know that they should leave us alone, a gentle reminder: STOP BUTTING IN INTO SOMEONE'S LIFE!!

Anyway as the story begins.

I have lead a simple life, before and today, i never cared too much about money or material things. I am still honest, never have the intention to disturb anyone or get myself involved into another personal lives. I was accused of being too honest or oblivious but i just continued with who i am.
It was more than 3 years ago that i met this woman, Teresa, from Bearshare, she started the conversation anyway. So from bearshare we moved to the YM.
We chatted and it got more intimate. Weeks after, I asked her whether she was seeing anyone, and she said, "No" and looking at her profile she was single anyway.
So i gave her my cellphone number, and typed "It would be proper for a guy to give their number to a girl so the girl could decide whether she wants to call me or not.
"Its safer," i added.
Interestingly, she responded with hers, and say, "if you want my number why dont you just ask for it?"
So i guessed thats a pretty descent way of looking at things and so I saved but i didnt called her.
So one day i asked her out for lunch but she was reluctant, at this time she has not revealed her workplace yet, i only know of its location, and was close to mine. But she said i could come and see her from a distant, on my suggestion. And she agreed.
So i went, and finally i saw her from the first floor of the complex where she worked. I was standing on the carpark under the sun and she waved.
That night she called me and we talked and i got to know her even more. And i asked her whether she wants to be my girlfriend and i failed. So many nights after and after more revelation about herself were made, i told her i dont mind all those things cause it was your past and i know you as a person today. And so i asked her whether she wants to be my girlfriend and finally she said, yes.

over the next a couple of weeks things went wild